Jatuh cinta. Kenapa cinta harus diiringi dengan kata “jatuh”? Jatuh cinta. Kenapa? Karena cinta itu datang secara tidak disengaja, sama kayak jatuh. Semua orang pasti ngga tau kapan mereka akan jatuh. Sama kayak cinta. Semua orang pasti ngga tau kapan mereka akan ngerasain yang namanya cinta. Jatuh, seringan apapun, pasti akan menimbulkan luka, entah itu goresan atau luka jaitan. Sama kayak cinta, sekecil apapun rasa cinta itu, pasti akan menimbulkan luka juga. Bedanya di sini, luka saat jatuh bisa diobati, tapi luka karena cinta yang terlalu dalam, ga akan pernah bisa diobati.
This is my confession… When I’m falling in love… I think about you, and then my heart beats faster but slower at the same time. I blush whenever I hear your name. I look at your profile constantly. I read your texts over and over again. I smile when I hear your voice. I love that feeling of being secure when you wrap your arms around me. I can be myself when I am with you. I can tell you anything, and you won't be shocked. And when you have to share anything you'll always come to me. Seems like I have become a crying shoulder to you. And I’m pained to see you in pain slightest of the slightest. And I just love him, I want him even more than me.
We started off as strangers, then soon became friends. You told me you liked me, thought I didn’t feel the same. Soon after you said, it started as a game. But soon became the truth. I don’t know what made me like you too. You’re the first one I think of when I wake up. And the last one I think of before I go to sleep. Everything. Our late night talks, dumb jokes, awkward moments, and all the laughter. Just makes me fall in love with you more. You give me butterflies when you say the sweetest things. Flirty little words, nick-names and playful games, and….sweet little kisses. Yeah, I love to be around you.
“I love being in love with you. Thank you just for choosing me. That we should be being in love forever. And ever, ever…”
I Love Being In Love With You – Diana Ross
But when you act like the one I didn’t fall in love with… it makes me wonder if we were really meant to be.
And then…..it’s over.
Gue merasakan yang namanya jatuh lagi. Dan kembali terluka. Luka itu lebih dalam dari luka-luka sebelumnya (apaan deh bahasa gue jadi resmi begini -_-) Hubungan kita berakhir bukan karena kita mau, tapi karena kita harus. Bukan karena kamu yang salah atau aku yang salah. Tapi karena hubungan kita ini yang salah di mata orang-orang. Kita terpaksa. Aku masih sayang sama kamu. Dari waktu itu, sampe sekarang.
Relationship sometimes come to an end. It’s just a fact of life. The problem is people just can’t let go and move on. The break up of this relationship probably seems like the end of the world. But it’s not.
“What's the wisest thing to do if you extremely want something or someone that/who can never be yours or can never be yours again or was never yours? Let go.” - Anonymous
Easier said than done. We may defy it, resist it or rebel against it, but that’s the way it should be…or the way we should go.
Let go.
I would stop thinking of him that much and start to convince myself that it’s a lost cause, that he’s not coming back. I have to tell myself the dreaded truth only I refused to acknowledge : He is not mine anymore and he’ll never be. I have to move on and live on for I have a full life ahead of me.
It’s like telling yourself that it’s no use crying over spilled milk and let bygones be bygones, let’s charge everything to experience.
He goes east, I’ll go west… and We both will live.
That’s all for now.
But I’ll always remember you :)
